"How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and every day have sorrow in my heart? How long will my enemy triumph over me? Look on me and answer, O Lord my God." –Psalm 13:2-3
The last time I saw Chris Kelly, he was a little freckled-faced kid. He has a ready smile and cerebral palsy. Chris is now grown and in college. Like many young adults with disabilities, he has struggled to reconcile his faith in Christ with the enormous barriers he faces, plus pressure from his peers. He sent me a poem last week, written straight from his heart...
Do you know what I am... do you understandthe severity sealed in clarity of my failure as your childno longer meek and mild, but tainted and pervertedby the sins now burdened upon my heart ... as evidence of the prevalencethat Darkness has in me... my arrogance has not been FreeI wander now at the cost of walking forever lostbut even now, I'm led to bow my head and praythough I have no right to sayI'm sorry, Lord.
And it's a wonder that your grace gets underall my rotting skin and takes the sin off my heartbecause I'm to be a part of your Family abovebecause I am one that Jesus gave his all that I might not fallhead first into the abyss of condemned... insignificance.
Take a moment to imagine what any young person in a wheelchair must face as he grows up. Think of the challenges he must deal with in college -- if he has the wherewithal to go to college. Think of the hurdles he'll face out in the world. May Chris's example of perseverance inspire us never to complain ever. Philippians 2:14-15 puts it this way, "Do everything without complaining ... so that you may become blameless and pure children of God.
Lord of all, I pray for the many young people like Chris who need your grace today. Made their examples inspire and encourage me always to persevere.